last night we all went back to bronx science. the math room was in the cafeteria and all the students were under 18yrs old …wait,
anyway, i realized that i completely forgot about the inners of calculus and panicked because IF I DONT KNOW MATH, WHAT DO I KNOW?
we were chilling in horty w phil, i was eating cereal, monica was plant-tending, katie was also there and she accidentally killed vivian with a death star (i then have to say vivian was also there..) it just FELT SO GOOD to be high, even in dream school.
i left to go fuck some boy and to get photos developed. as I was walking back inside the cafeteria i saw katie and timothy eating ramen noodles off of one of the green low benches near the back steps, (ew).
timothy was filming eveything with a super 8 toy camera and dream me thought GOD, THAT’S A REALLY GOOD SHOT. he pointed the lens at me across the yard and rewound the cranker so he caught me and this boy (some boy?) entering the building; GOD, THAT’S GOOD LAYERING. i got jealous about the great cinematography but dream me felt justified because his eyes were narrowed and it made him look like an asshole (or stupid? i think it’s all the same in dreams).
i got photos developed 4 free cuz the darkroom was playing kontschitsa leto and the old weathered photog man and me bonded ovr tsoi <3 but then all my photos were fucked up and stuck together because all of a sudden i was in binghamton and that’s what happens in binghamton. fucked and stucked. but the guy had long grey hair and was wearing a canadian suit…and he was nice about it (the get-up and the whole binghamton situation), so my photos were cleaned and fixed. i finally got to see them,
they were beautiful. lots of geese.
towards the end we all ended up back together on harris field (except vivian, sorry vivian). it was quiet and i started to cry. timothy told me to shut up and not get the joint wet (we were in a cyf, duh), monica was really happy that we were finally all together again so i didnt say anything.
it was when i knew we were all in my dream but didn’t want to ruin the moment.
obviously that’s also when i woke up.